Hey Guys! I'm sorry I haven't written in a while. But in the time I have had off, I have learnt a lot. Ive gained a lot of friendships and lost one or two. Thats why i'm here today to talk to you guys about toxic people or situations. 

I had a friendship with someone who I didn't realize was toxic until I got out of it. Someone who is rude about you behind your back, constantly lies to you and has the decency to sleep with your ex boyfriend is not your friend. Since I have got out of this friendship I have been a lot happier, my secrets have been kept and have found out the truth about this person. Guys if someone who is supposed to be your friend can lie to your face for months, you need to re think if you want this person in your life.

Toxic situations are just as bad. If you have a bad feeling about going to a certain party, DONT GO. Nine times out of ten you will usually be right. If you have fear of FOMO (Fear of missing out), nothing overly exiting happens at teenage parties and if it does you will find out about it by Monday anyway. 

If you think someone or something could be toxic in your life, you don't need it. It's better to stay out of any situation that could make you unhappy. 

Sometimes it's the littlest things in life that mean the most. Without realizing it us as human beings have a lot to appreciate in the world. I take most things for granted, I don't really appreciate what I have and the things and people around me. 

This year I want to learn to appreciate more. Mostly little things, such as views, car trips, compliments ect. New Zealand is a beautiful country so I need to get off my ass and start exploring it. If someone compliments me I want to make sure I appreciate their effort.

Since the start of the year I have written down in my 2016 diary two things that i'm grateful for everyday. Some times this can be really tough when my day has been shitty. But I know that when I look back at the end of the year and see what I thought to write down on certain days it might bring some memories back. This also helps me to appreciate the little things.

You should give it a try. Writing down 2 things everyday that you are grateful for or just appreciating whats around you. I guarantee it will give you and different outlook on life 

Usually when people say they want to focus on themselves, its considered selfish. I don't find this at all. Improving yourself is yes obviously for yourself but this isn't always the case. This year I want to improve myself. 

I'm the first one to admit it (apart from my dad) that i'm probably the laziest person out there. My bed is my favourite place. This year I wanna do something with my life. Get up early to exercise so im not such a lazy blob.

I want to stop being so hard on myself. I like to criticize myself, a lot. This is not a healthy thing to do, it makes you feel horrible about yourself and decreases yourself esteem. I criticize myself in the things that I think I did well on but because the people around me have done better what I have done is not as good in comparison.

My counselor pointed out to me that I have a hard time with telling people my strengths. Whenever she would ask me what im proud of or what my strengths are I would also feel uncomfortable and want to move on. This is because society puts us down for loving ourselves. 

My friend Alaina has been the one to point this out to me. If she's in a relationship and doesn't feel like she's being treated the way she deserves, she gets the hell out of there. She respects herself. It infuriates me when girls are being treated like dog shit in a relationship and still decided to be with that person. I wish girls would be confident in themselves and respect themselves like Alaina to want whats best for them, not the other person. I hope i'm never in this situation of choosing to love myself or another person. 

My whole message from this post is for people to love who they are. You are born being you. So don't change for a boy or because those girls don't like your style. Be yourself. Because at the end of the day people come and go but you will always have yourself.

Rant over.

Youtube videos are the thing that takes up most of my time. If I have free time you will usually find me watching youtube videos. Being a youtuber myself I am very picking with who I watch and the content they put out. So I decided to share some of my fav youtubers with you all. Pre warning they are all beauty channels. 

Tess Christine! 

Tess's channel for me is more of a fashion channel. Her outifts are on point and so put together. She gives me a lot of inspiration for my wardrobe choices. Her get the look for less videos are my favourite! They are super helpful. In these videos she shows you how to get the look of some of your fav celebrity looks for much cheeper.

Siena Mirabella

Siena has always been an inspiration for me. She is the same age as me (17) as such a bright future ahead of her. I love her channel because of how real she is. She is hilarious and so cute. She is all kind of goals for me. She loves reading and always has good book advice.

Maddi Bragg

Maddi is a lot like Siena. She is a 17 year old as well and has amazing content on her channel. She has killer eyebrow and winged eye tutorial. Maddi's channel is great because it has a good balance of makeup and fashion videos but she also gives advice and does a lot of tags.

Cartia Mallan

Cartia is a more of a recent discovery for myself. I love watching her vlogs as she travels a lot and by a lot I mean A LOT. She has makeup and fashion videos but her channel mostly consists of vlogs. She is beautiful and gives some amazing advice for teenagers. I hope to travel as much as her one day.

Anna Akana

Unlike the others Anna's channel is not a beauty one. Her channel consists of hilarious videos filled with advice. Anna has videos that are inspirational. She talks about her own experiences and how insane she is. She gives such great advice and a opinion of her own. Did I mention she is hilarious? 

I know its a cliché, the whole new year, new me thing. But this year I want to make a change. Not only to my behaviour but also to how I see myself. So I made a 2016 Bucket List. I left out the normal things like to eat healthy, exercise and drink more water because I thought those were obvious.

1. Go to at least one music festival.

2. MOISTURIZE

3. Lots and lots of adventures

4. Better Instagram and Youtube content.

5. Step outside my comfort zone

6. Get a tattoo

7. Blog once a week

8. Go to NZFW

9. Focus more in school

10. Try something I haven't before

11. Start a photo album

12. Stop spending money on shit (probably wont happen)

13. Figure out my future

14. Be happier with myself

5. Enjoy my last year of high school

Most of these things probably wont end up happening but at least if I have them written down i can remember them. Everytime I do one of these things I will come back and cross it off. Let me know what your 2016 bucket list looks like. 

 

On the 9th of January 2016 I went back to Hawkes Bay. I haven't been back since the day I left. It was an amazing time! I got to see some of my fav people but sadly didn't get to see everyone I wanted to. 

Visiting the Bay made me realize a few things.

1. I am happy that I moved.

2. People who are truly your friends will always be no matter the distance.

3. Make time for the people who you want in your life.

4. Appreciate the time you have with your friends because you never know when it could end.

5. Step outside your comfort zone. This will create the best memories 

I made a short video of my time in the Bay, that i would like to share with you xx